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Sad Dad 2
02:20
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My Radiation
02:03
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I went to Oklahoma
To get over my fear of tornadoes
All that I got back was
Another fear of living
Last summer
I was scared of TV Dinners
They just taste like my radiation
I was scared of you but
That didn’t really matter
I tried to be a good human
But I don’t know why I bothered
Last week I went outside
Just to try and grab the mail
And I got kinda near it
But only with my eyes closed
He sat down in a recliner
With all of his family watching
Watching as he got swallowed
And all they could do is nothing
I don’t believe
In subtelty
So you can choke
On my radiation
I want you to choke
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Sad Dad
03:29
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esse never leaves his bedroom
whats he do in there
daddy turns on the TV
he doesn’t give a damn
look right into his eyes
do you never truly care
i just stare out my window
we could be anywhere
your mother, she lives like a child
happiness is ignorance
the things I see wear down on me
now turn back up the TV
i live and I hope to forget
but it always comes back to me
the fear in her eyes as she passed away
and I must live another day
not shaving on the weekends
you’ll find yourself getting in trouble
never leave the house and I’ll say
“okay, now that’s enough”
when I’m far away,
i never wanna go home
to the empty beer cans and fluorescent lights that
shine on through to the morning
i went to the garage,
he was under the car
i was gonna leave
but he took me
i feel like i’ve awoken from a very strange dream
and god knows I have no idea what it means
stains on our clothing
holes in the wall
i'm so scared that i’ve missed it all
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Alone
01:39
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you can't always get what you want
things didn't work out with us
you just wanted someone to fuck
now i just wanna throw up
a boy who turns you on
and by daytime he's gone
i guess i thought you needed me all along
you were my only true friend
now i feel so alone
i thought you could do no harm
i know i was wrong
you can't always get what you want
sunny days could never last long
i just wanted someone close by
i know that i was dumb
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5. |
I Ruin Everything
01:45
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so many ways you can fall apart
asleep at the wheel
or in my bed after dark
have u ever dreamed of somewhere that you've never been?
in another car
i saw a tiger at the wheel
i asked him what it's like to
never feel
he said its nice and then
he cut me off
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6. |
Esteban D
04:12
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I wake up in a house I have no recollection of visiting before. I look out the window and the
neighborhood is just as unfamiliar, although it does seem ever so slightly familiar, as if I was born here. I walk out onto my driveway in a baby blue bathrobe that reminds me of my mother. I can hardly remember her, it takes effort. What year is it? I look at the newspaper laying by the mailbox but I can’t decipher any of the words. It’s English, the language I was raised on, but my brain just skips over the words so it might as well be Russian or Chinese. I notice that I can hear birds chirping but it comes with the sudden realization that I have a searing headache
Humanity originated in the Great Rift Valley of Ethiopia, or that’s what I learned in (high) school. I remember that my teacher said that it was ironic or funny or something, how humanity originated in Africa and now it’s one of the least habitable continents on the planet Earth. The first human, a lady named Lucy, died by falling off of a tree! A boy who lived down the street from me when I was young fell of a tree he was climbing, and broke his neck and was paralyzed. It was in a neighborhood not unlike this one! My older brother was friends with his older brother but we hardly talked.
Hey, I just remembered, my grandpa’s caretaker for the last month of his life was from Africa. He was ghanan or ugandan or something. His name was frank and he lived in Columbus, ohio when he wasn’t taking care of dying people and living in their houses. In fact, I heard him call for my mother when my grandpa was choking on his own vomit and dying. (shout dramatically) “Rachel! Rachel!” he yelled, in a funny accent too, but it was too late at that point. I had never seen a dead body before.
We had to take care of my grandpa’s dog when he was gone. He didn’t get along well with our cats, but man, I love to watch dogs do stuff. Sometimes, at work, when my boss isn’t nearby, I go look at pictures of dogs on the internet, or even better, videos. They always cheer me up no matter how i feel! Hey, we sound just like the talking heads! Right, Zach? Right, Danny? Well, jeez, 1, 2, 3, 4!
Every night I dream of Esteban D
You COME COME COME
And see right thru me
Ever since I’ve met you
I’ve wanted to kiss you
So many weeks have passed by and
I do nothing but miss you
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