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Can i borrow a feeling?
03:15
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I'm not who I want to be and thats okay. Being loved is something i'm not good at anyway. I let down everyone I care about. I've made my peace with always feeling empty.
Empty is all I feel, I wish you was here to stop me when I'm drowning. Empty is all I feel, I wish you was here to stop me when I'm falling.
Where do I see myself in five years? In the ground hopefully. All I want for you to be is happy, but thats not with me. Where do I see myself in five years? In the ground hopefully. All I want is for you to be happy.
Empty is all I feel, I wish you was here to stop me when I'm drowning.
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But my mum says i'm cool
03:22
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I just feel so insecure but I try not to show it. You should know you're the only reason i've held on so long.
I'm not alright and thats just fine. I probably never will be, don't waste your time. I'm not alright and thats just fine. I probably never will be, don't waste your time.
I don't think i'll ever get better, I don't know if i even want to. I always let myself down.
I'm not alright and thats just fine. I probably never will be, don't waste your time. I'm not alright and thats just fine. I probably never will be, don't waste your time.
I write stupid songs to try and express myself, in the form of a cry for help. All i want is for you to be there everyday but I know you probably won't be.
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A darker kind of pain wraps its arms around me. I can not save you from yourself.
The first time I saw you you split my mind in two. I never thought of me without you.
All those times I said I loved you, I swear it was the truth.
I can not save you. No matter how much I want to. I can not save you from yourself.
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Bury me at makeout creek
03:04
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I feel so alone and my head gets darker with the setting sun.
I don't care, as long as you're happy. I don't care.
I'm full of insecurities, i'm riddled with self doubt. I don't see a reason why we should hang out. It's not that i don't like you, its that i really don't like me. I just want to be free.
I don't care, as long as you're happy. I don't care.
Wake up, go back to sleep, repeat this process till I feel complete. Wake up, go back to sleep, repeat this process till I feel complete.
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I wish that I was deaf so I didn't have to hear all the stupid shit that fals from my mouth.
I'm unimportant and I don't care, I walk around like life's unfair. I'm unimportant and I don't care, I won't see another year.
I know that I fucked up and i'm sorry that you left, I guess i'm really that insignificant. I know that I fucked up and i'm sorry that you left, I guess I'm really that unimportant.
(I wish that I was deaf so I didn't have to hear all the stupid shit that falls from my mouth.
I'm unimportant and I don't care, I walk around like life's unfair. I'm unimportant and I don't care, I won't see another year.
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Theres something very wrong with me, I try so hard to be happy.
All my life i've been a disappointment, I can't sew myself shut again. I'm sorry that I let you down for so long, I promise I won't be around.
Tell me what I can do to fix you. Tell me what I can do to fix us.
Tell me what I can do to fix you. Tell me what I can do to fix us.
Fix us.
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It's a different kind of feeling, Hurtin' hearts need some healin'. I'm so sorry I ain't text you back. I never know how to react, when I am so alone. I'm not a ghost but I wish i was.
23 in debt, clinically depressed. I know i'm no good when I'm alone. Give me a reason, help me rid this feeling.
I don't think of me as anything good. My life's going the way I always knew it would.
If I could turn back time i'd do everything the same, You can't take the loser out of me. Constant emotion, always broken. Fuck.
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Throw myself off roofs. lose myself in you.
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Theres not a thing that I could do, I still have the same feelings for you.
Nothings changed, I'm still the same waste of space that i've always been. I don't know, I've never had control.
Is it possible to love someone when you hate yourself? Counting down the days til I die. Insignificant life, I am not alright.
I can not believe you ever though I deserved to be in your life.
10 years and i'm still holding on. After all this time I can't believe you still care. 10 years. 10 years. 10 years. I'm still holding on.
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